Feeling Girly

Perhaps the biggest thrill I've found in going femme is what happens when I get smooth, put on some girl clothes, add some earrings and a few other dangly things, put on my wig, and voilà! Out steps Stefanya!

The biggest surprise for me is all of a sudden I find I rather like what I see in the mirror. This is a new experience for me. I recently got myself a full length mirror, which allows me to see the whole effect. I'm awestruck by myself sometimes. I have great legs!

I am especially delighted by how dressing in these clothes and looking this way makes me feel: sensual, playful, sexy, shrewd, and fierce.

"Girly" activities please and tickle me: I love painting my toenails, I pierced my earlobes and I love trying on different silly little earrings, I love shopping for bargains on tops or shorts or leggings at the Clearance racks/shelves at Target or WalMart or Walgreens

I feel "girly"; but not like a bimbo or a pushover (despite my submissive leanings and a strange fascination with the whole "sissy" vibe; I have more on all that elsewhere).

There's a sense of claiming a strength and dignity and power that I never felt I had access to previously while I struggled to maintain some semblance of traditional masculinity that never seemed achievable or to fit me very well.

Where does all this come from? Is it really mine?