Being a "Sissy"
As I alluded to in my earlier Attraction post, I've been exploring a lot in the "sissy" space lately. I think I may be a sissy of some form or other.
As a child/adolescent I was definitely a "sissy" in many of the traditional meanings of the term when applied to young boys: emotionally sensitive, unathletic, soft spoken, creative, uninterested in many more traditional boyish activities, curious about more "girly" ones.
Now as an adult, I'm finding I fit many of the paraphilic/trans-erotic meanings of "sissy" as well.
There's a lot going on there. Some of which really gets my motor running, some of which makes me go "ewww", a goodly chunk of which just kind of provokes "WTF?"
There's some pretty definite angles I don't find appealing:
So, losing some weight, getting more toned, getting some tits, maybe shapewear is in order.
What I'm finding I'm having a little trouble unpacking is the "sissy slut" sensibility. There's a lot of associated porn out there, much of it of the "hypnosis" variety that is supposed to reprogram a man into a cock craving "faggot".
A lot of this edges into the humiliation space I mentioned above, which I don't care to buy into. I'm more than able to put myself down sufficiently, thank you. I don't need anyone else -- particularly not someone whose opinion I value or am wanting to influence (e.g. a prospective romantic partner) -- reaffirming my own worst self assessments.
Beyond that the sissy slut is apparently meant to crave providing 24/7 attention (oral, anal, hand jobs) to penises (usually attached to cis-men, often large and belonging to black men) and being showered in ejaculate. They should have little room psychologically for anything else other than that and staying pretty to attract more penises.
The process is further supposed to minimize the sissy's penis to where it becomes tiny, and they learn to orgasm from anal sex (prostate stimulation presumably). I'm not particularly unhappy with my little friend, so that doesn't feel necessary.
Now, I don't generally identify as wanting to receive sexual attention from men, I like girls; but there's something strangely compelling about the fantasy of becoming this gorgeous, buxom, sex crazed, cock sucking, anal fuck doll tranny.
Maybe it's the psycho-sexual power that comes from the thought of being physically attractive in that way, which I don't think I'm likely to achieve in this lifetime at my age with this body.
But I have to say, the thought of being with a strong, dominant woman who wants to sissify me into her "girlfriend" is exhilarating.
As a child/adolescent I was definitely a "sissy" in many of the traditional meanings of the term when applied to young boys: emotionally sensitive, unathletic, soft spoken, creative, uninterested in many more traditional boyish activities, curious about more "girly" ones.
Now as an adult, I'm finding I fit many of the paraphilic/trans-erotic meanings of "sissy" as well.
There's some pretty definite angles I don't find appealing:
- No thanks on being humiliated.
- No thanks on the whole cuckold scene.
- No thanks on infantilization (diapering, pottying, etc.)
- No thanks on the whole body suit and mask thing.
- Not into serious leather or latex or vinyl. Or serious machinery.
- Submitting myself to a strong, intelligent, dominant woman or transwoman? Yup.
- Would I be on board for "penile chastity"? Yup.
- Being anally penetrated (pegged)? Yup.
- Dressing femme/girly? Yup (up to a point, I'm not really into the full-on little girl baby-doll/Shirley Temple petticoat thing). Basically already doing that with my cross-dressing in pursuit of my trans identity.
- French Maid? Maybe. I could bring a lot to the table for being a housekeeper for my domme, and I'd not mind dressing the part when she was around ;-)
So, losing some weight, getting more toned, getting some tits, maybe shapewear is in order.
What I'm finding I'm having a little trouble unpacking is the "sissy slut" sensibility. There's a lot of associated porn out there, much of it of the "hypnosis" variety that is supposed to reprogram a man into a cock craving "faggot".
A lot of this edges into the humiliation space I mentioned above, which I don't care to buy into. I'm more than able to put myself down sufficiently, thank you. I don't need anyone else -- particularly not someone whose opinion I value or am wanting to influence (e.g. a prospective romantic partner) -- reaffirming my own worst self assessments.
Beyond that the sissy slut is apparently meant to crave providing 24/7 attention (oral, anal, hand jobs) to penises (usually attached to cis-men, often large and belonging to black men) and being showered in ejaculate. They should have little room psychologically for anything else other than that and staying pretty to attract more penises.
The process is further supposed to minimize the sissy's penis to where it becomes tiny, and they learn to orgasm from anal sex (prostate stimulation presumably). I'm not particularly unhappy with my little friend, so that doesn't feel necessary.
Now, I don't generally identify as wanting to receive sexual attention from men, I like girls; but there's something strangely compelling about the fantasy of becoming this gorgeous, buxom, sex crazed, cock sucking, anal fuck doll tranny.
Maybe it's the psycho-sexual power that comes from the thought of being physically attractive in that way, which I don't think I'm likely to achieve in this lifetime at my age with this body.
But I have to say, the thought of being with a strong, dominant woman who wants to sissify me into her "girlfriend" is exhilarating.
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