Attraction

Through all of my femme impulses and desires, I have remained attracted to women.

I guess I'm a lesbian transwoman (a "transbian" I've seen it called).

There's a lot of "sissy" porn out on the web in which a recurring meme is an image of a sexy woman often performing some kind of sex act, and a caption with words to the effect "Do you want her, or do you want to be her?"

I feel I can honestly answer "both"; the thought of doing her turns me on, the thought of being her and being done by somebody else like her turns me on.

I'm less clear about the other stuff. Guys' bodies just don't do it for me as a rule. The thought of hairy, muscly, sweaty guys thrusting themselves at me just kind of leaves me unmoved, bordering on mild repulsion.

I love soft, smooth, and smelling good. Tits and hips and ass and shapely legs all get my motor running. The thing is, I want to have them too.

I love pussies, playing with them, exploring those velvet folds, they're like gorgeous exotic flowers. I love their scent and taste, how they feel on my lips and tongue when I'm shoving my face into them. Licking and sucking clit and making girls cum is a huge and satisfying thrill for me.

Lately though I've realized that as long as the overall package is femme, I'm not overly concerned with what's between her legs and I'm pretty attracted to pre- and non-op transwomen as well.

So, where does this leave me in terms of finding partners? I sometimes despair.